What I failed to mention is that it changes every day. Or every other day. Or every few hours.
Admittedly, many days I am excited about this whole baby thing. And other days, like today, I'm overwhelmed and afraid.
I'm doing so much reading lately on "mommyhood" and learning as much as I possibly can. I even found a website that's dedicated solely to baby blogs - mom and dads on the parenthood journey.
In so many ways I still feel like a little kid myself. I still remember being a 7 year old girl playing "wedding" and "baby" with my friends in the neighborhood. I still remember riding a little pink bicycle down the street with daddy standing at the end of the driveway watching me. It's still vivid, the days of playing ball with daddy in the front yard, and countless hours of him teaching me to be a better softball pitcher.
And now here I am. Soon to be mommy. That word is so frightening sometimes. I'm so not ready for this. But then again, I guess no one is ever really ready for that first child, no matter what their age is.
Can any other moms out there relate to how I'm feeling?! Please just tell me I'm not alone and I'm not a horrible person for being totally frightened rather than elated with great joy!